God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen.
--Reinhold Niebuhr
"Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn in school. But, if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything."
---Muhammad Ali

"We are driven to create at this deep wordless level of the soul because we are all fashioned in the image of a God who is an Artist." - Michael Card, Scribbling in the Sand.

Friday, June 09, 2006

The roller coaster ride is still on going. At least he did answer a phone call today. He’s not talking to me other then yes and no answers. I read in his blog that he doesn’t know what to do…but that at least he can stay with his brother and get me out of his hair. I guess I’m a pain in the butt mom. I didn’t think I was we have always been able to talk and work things out but I guess I’m not cool any more.

I don’t know what to do or say I wrote to him trying to make sure that he understood I love him and want us to work this out. But, I guess if he makes a mistake he gets to pick up the pieces. I just can’t continue to deal with all the pain the stress causes me. I’ve been sleeping 12 to 14 hours a night just to be able to function at work during the day.

The RA and Fibro are in full bloom and I’m totally miserable. But, I guess that’s part of life and we all have to live with it. On a good note I got to talk to a friend of mine I was worried about. Things seem to be going a little better for her and her family. And Ruth emailed and she is ok, tired from everything to do with the new house but things are moving along for her. I can’t wait to get to meet her in person. She is such a dear friend.

On another note my best friend is still suffering from the loss of her beloved pet. I so want to give her a hug and tell her it will get better. But, I know that it has to be so hard for her! I feel so bad for her and her husband, I hope that their hearts can handle the pain and that they begin to heal.

Not much going on in the scrapping world right now. I’m not getting much done since I’ve been sleeping off the flare…I did get some cool Big Thunder Mountain pictures yesterday in the mail and hope to get something done with them this weekend. I also want to try to finish up an album for a lady that is retiring here at work and try to get a PBA done for another friend.

I have to decide if I’m going to try out for the KI color theory also. Oh well lots of time and if I don’t it won’t matter any way it will just be another turn down.

Time to close! I hope everyone has a beautiful weekend.

1 comment:

liway5 said...

Wow Jane - you've got lots on your plate right now! Wes will come around...give him time! You're a great Mom..and he'll make the right decision!! Um...not much going on in the scrapping world??? You had better check the email I sent you this morning! LOL!!! Anyway - good luck with the KI Contest. I want to try out too, but like you, I have so much going on right now, I just don't know if I should take on one more thing!!! Take care my friend! ((HUGS))